i will be 16 in about 2 days.

at first, the thought of this freaked me the fuck out. but now, i think i'm ready.

i am going to make turning 16 a chance to start all over.
although my 15th year was pretty good, it was definitely a growing year. i learned a lot, and my views on a lot of things changed.
but now, i'm sick of just learning. i'm sick of waiting around on things to happen, and expecting everything to just fall into place. sometimes, you've got to knock down the first domino yourself to watch the rest fall where they may.
"standing on the fringes of life offers a unique perspective, but there comes a time to see what it looks like from the dance floor." - that pretty much sums it all up.

i'm so ready to take risks, to try new and scary things, to meet new people and make new memories. i'm ready to feel butterflies, goosebumps, sweaty and shaking palms, my heart in my stomach, bruises and cuts, aches in my stomach from laughing too hard, sore throats from yelling/singing too loud. i'm ready to feel alive.
life moves way too fast, and it's about time i started catching up.

i've been here so long, i think that it's time to move.
the winter's so cold, summer's over too soon.
so let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow.

i've got some friends, some that i hardly know.
but we've had some times i wouldn't trade for the world.
we chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go.

so halloween was fun. pictures under the cut.

i'm so happy it's november. new month. new perspective. new opportunities.

basically, i'm leaving all the negativity that october has thrown at me IN october. i'm through with all my insecurities. i'm through being a boy-obsessed girl who needs some 16-year-old horny idiot all over her to make her feel loved. i'm through causing my own problems and then freaking out over them and feeling like i'm worthless because of it.
all of that has just gotten old for me, and frankly, i'm bored.
so i'm moving on.





tea. when is tea NOT making me happy?




yellow nail polish.
i need to get some so badly.




WATCHING EPISODES OF LITTLE BEAR ON NOGGIN.

did you know there are NO decent regular pictures of little bear on google images OR photobucket?
trust me, i looked.
but hey, halloween. little bear. this works, right?




this album.





over-priced, adorable, amazing sweaters from urban outfitters.






this.




annnnd...this.











( because after halloween....everything starts fading. )